"He's twenty three Jenn. What's Felicity thinking seriously?" My ears picked up a certain age, and judging from how you have no other person in that age bracket I was going to assume it was me. What would the baby have anything to do with me? I watched them talk for sometime as I finished up on the counter. We hadn't seen each other since our bump in at the gallery and I seem to have been slacking off on my main mission, for good reason. I spent the whole weekend reading, studying, watching, listening to the ways I was going to claim you. I was not a romantic bastard with inborn senses of how to seduce women, I needed to see and hear how it was done, and if I was causing that disheveled look on you, then I wasn't half as bad.
I got a break and came up behind you and leaned down to see what you were typing on your laptop. Your body froze and Jenn made a small sound of surprise as my chin rested on your shoulder. This was far past my comfort zone, for any point of mine, but why the hell did you smell so good? I withdrew before I made heads turn our direction and sit on the empty seat opposite you.
"Jenn is it? We haven't been properly introduced I'm Q." The moment I extended my hand to hers she took it slow and I nodded. I guess they were still trying to process the move I just pulled and I felt inwardly proud that your body was reacting the way it should.
"I'm Jenn, we were just hanging out right Venice?" She said and I could tell she was starting to get uncomfortable with me here. I seem to be their main topic of discussion but that's not what it was. My eyes never left Venice, not even to fully introduce myself to Jenn. Your hands were hovering above the keyboard slightly trembling. I couldn't tell if it was exhaustion or your sensitivity to touch.
"Jenn, can I steal your friend away?" I asked and Venice was shaking her head at her and Jenn was happy to give us the privacy I asked for and I smiled as she left. V why won't you look at me. Look at me. I needed to you to look at me for me to tell what you were thinking.
"Q, what do you want?"
"Your attention would be much appreciated right now so I may explain it to you." Her eyes lifted and met mine and a small smile played along my lips, I could feel it. Were those dark circles and you had drooping eyelids. You were tired, but you still managed to reincarnate the term "beautiful mess" into my imagination. I leaned forward, and tilted my head a little for me to get you confused.
"I would be crazy enough to say you but that would be inappropriate wouldn't it?" She stares me dead in the eye and her mouth swings open only to be shut just as quickly again and after all that something about that look didn't sit well with me entirely cause that's not the look I'm going for here.
"Q your time for games is not valid on my calender," you're starting to pack up and I'm feeling ignored. Come on, what do I have to say or do for you to consider it? I cage you in your chair and then lean in close enough for only you to hear in this public place. You couldn't scream or insult me with so many people around. Just sit your ass down and listen goddammit.
"V I'm serious. I want us to enjoy each other's company....maybe not about the stalker something light." I snap my fingers and remember. "I can get us tickets to a movie screening on Sunday, it's the last showing."
Your eyes weren't giving me any hope for that movie. I want to watch it with you I want to see what It has in store and I want to see you outside this state of distress, the Venice that your friends experience everyday.
"A movie?" You ask and I nod immediately. I wasn't asking for much just some time together. I want to know you. No Jace around. No other men to interrupt me. Just you and me.
"Yeah. "
"Is....what....are you asking me out or is this between friends." Have I ever asked a woman out? No. You'd be my first. That's why I was holding on to hope that you would agree. And I needed to step back, before I was tempted to put my face on your neck again and breathe you in. So hurry it up V.
"I'm asking you out on a date love. I'm asking you to go watch a movie with me and after we can go do something else. Please?" I was telling another person please? I was begging a woman for her time? V you see the chokehold you have on me? I would never do this for anyone else not even for Daniella. Not even for the people who birthed me. May their souls rest in peace.
"Okay, if it's Sunday I can manage. But Q-" shit now what?
"Q I'm still recovering from Jace and I don't wanna move too fast so I hope we have fun Sunday." I nodded and made myself look as sympathetic as possible. If you knew how much of a damn I don't give about your dead lover V.
Don't get pissed.
Breathe.
"I understand. Let's meet on Sunday." I leaned back and pulled out my phone to hers. She put in her number and I stepped back allowing her to move now freely. I got a date with you. I got a day with you. And we could even text each other. Maybe those movies weren't such a lie after all.
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Having a person's number was interesting. It was a tap in to the major part of your life. And for the most part of this, I was tapping in to your intrusive thoughts. Your search history, your texts, your feed for your handles in social media. You were so closed off I wouldn't have realised you were into bikes and cars, not to mention...cats? How adorable.
I went into the deeper parts of the web just to bypass any VPN you might have put up to avoid fuckers like me. Oh if you only knew the platonic relationship I had with VPN and passwords. I slowly went into your Google and found many....not few....but many explicit videos of what you were into....sexually and holy fucking shit.
You were for sure not a vanilla girl.
I had videos of girls choked, rough fucking, bondage and even degrading videos of girls and older men. I wish that was the end of it but the rest I saw that you frequented were things I had never seen. I was going to have to dig into this. I was going to have to learn how to navigate your needs because baby, you were one dirty minded slut by heart. And that was such a turn on you didn't even realise ignited in me.