Well, saying I would talk is better said than done. It's been two months and nothing has changed. I feel so down now. I eat less and keep mostly to myself. The walking therapist stopped coming because now I could walk just fine. Wobbly but fine. Today, the speech therapist is coming and I swore to start talking, I just need to push my brain a bit more. Or maybe I will be dumb all my life? Well there is ok only one way to find out.
"Hello Ruby?"
I open my mouth but no words come out. He looks at me with pity.
"Don't do ush your self so hard."
Well, that's encouraging coming from a person training an almost twenty one year old human how to talk.
"I want you to think of a word in your brain and imagine saying it with your mouth."
I look at him, is this hjman crazy? That's what I have been trying to do for the past nine months.
"Close your eyes, take a deep breath..."
I follow instructions, I will not loose anything if I decided to try this trick.
"Just think of one word and say it."
I think and all that comes to mind is Taylor.
I think and imagine saying it.
"T... Taylor"
"That would be me!"
I am so startled that I jump and look back to find Taylor leaning on the side frame of the door. Now I am shy, he didn't have to hear my first word being his name.
"You finally said your first word..."
The therapist say so happily and I look away. I would have jumped up and down, if my legs let me that is, but I would have jumped if Taylor wasn't standing there listening to the therapist embarrass me.
"So, my name is the first thing you say after not speaking for almost six year?"
I don't say anything but look down. I can see him smirking through my spherical view.
"Am flattered..."
He says and I look up. This man is doing thing to me that no other human had ever done, especially to my body.
After a while of just looking at me, the therapist clears his throat and we both look at him.
" I better leave so you can continue...good job doc."
He walks out and I exhale. I must have been to afraid to even breath, literally.
"Want to do it again?"
I nod.
"Think of something else and repeat the process and see.
"H...hel...lloo "
The doctor laughs, not a mockery laughter but a happy one.
" Hello to you too"
He says after the laughter and I smile. I can finally talk, I can make my brain and mouth work together again. I am so happy right now.