There were times that Seon-Ho did indeed carry across his image as a powerful noble in order to obtain what he wanted and I found myself having to do the same thing in order to stop him running away from me which I knew he was doing for his own sake. But ever since the day of the banquet he was ignoring me even more, until I received the news of he fall of The Second Prince by the lead of The Third Prince. This news alone sent me down a spiral of nerves as there was a really bad feeling that was settling inside of me but I didn't fully understand why that was. All I knew was that I had to see The Young Master and figure out exactly what his plans were so that I myself could figure out my own future, only to walk in on him having an argument with his so-called beloved woman right outside of her chambers.
"What is wrong with you? Why have you become so quiet ever since the banquet? Has something happened that you are not telling me about?" "And you would know all about that, wouldn't you? Keeping secrets from each other?" "Seon-Ho that is different and you know it!" "How! How is it different!" "It is because you are far too reckless and impulsive to be trusted with any information when it comes to me! I know you, remember? I was there by your side when you went up again my brother and tell me, how many times did you almost loose your life! How many times did he under your father's rule! How many times did you almost kill each other! So why would I tell you both anything when you will both dive headfirst into death's jaws!" "So you were never going to tell me that you were bullied in the brothel mercilessly! You were never going to tell me that it was The Third Princess Consort who did this to you! How many days were you whipped! And starved! And exposed all night long…!" "I had to do this for my mother! Fr her memory! Otherwise her death would have been in vain! And it worked, didn't it! I didn't even have to do anything to The Princess Consort myself for her to suffer her own downfall!" "But you were still going to hide all of this from me, right! You won't tell me anything even if someone wants to kill you!" "Seon-Ho, for the life that you have lived, I would much rather you hate and misunderstand me rather than fall to your own death before you achieved any of your goals because of me!"
"What the fuck do you take me for girl! You are a woman who was supposed to be married with children right now and you to act out on your own! Why don't you still trust me after everything that I have done for you! For us! But now I realise that you will never take me in as your confidant or support at all!" "That is because of my father's reputation that still lingers over our heads! Haven't you figured it out yet? Do you still not underhand the reason why I kept running away from you after your father's death? My life will always be in danger due to my father's long standing reputation and I didn't want you to be anywhere near me! So that I could protect you and…but you kept chasing me no mater what…and you made me fall for you all over again…and I couldn't stop you no matter what I did…" "You are aways like this, you have the extraordinary ability to refuse advice and cover up your mistakes." "I wasn't loved as a child just like you yourself, so it is hard not to be suspicious of your so-called feelings towards me. You have treated me well, but I keep thinking that you only want me around for your goals ever since I came out of a brothel untouched. I will never be seen as your equal either, not when it comes to my past and…." "Everything that I have is yours and you know it. You can tell me anything; your fears and your loneliness and you know it. I am only controlling to this extent because you never tell me anything, why can't you just warm up to me?" "Because I would much rather see you live than burden you with my problems! And why do you care at all? Am I not only important for your grand plans!" "Because I need you to be fucking alive and healthy for my plans! Or…" "Or what?" "Will you continue to intentionally mistrust me until I profess my love to you! Is that it? Is this once of your down out games? You get close to me whilst keeping your secrets? You let me have you in every way possible whilst you live out your own life by your own rules? You don't think of me at all, do you! You don't love me, do you! But you want me to say it, right!"
"No, that is not it at all! I would never tease you like that!" "Like you didn't follow Dal everywhere under my father's roof! You treated him differently than myself back then!" "That is because Dal saw me back then when all you had eyes for was somebody else! You saved me and dressed me up to be noble and then left me on my own! He saw my loneliness, not you! He took care of me when I was left to deal with my memory loss on my own! Whilst you chased around the woman whose idea it was to torture me in the brothel, can't you see it! Hui-Jae was never a kisaeng and yet she is burdened with that title all of her life, everywhere she went! My mother and myself are the only 2 women that entered such a place and have never been tainted by the kisaeng or prostitute at all! And she vented her anger out onto me and my body all because you rejected her!" "So this is my fault! That is why you will never open up to me! Because of some stupid crush that I had year ago that I am still paying for to this day…"! "Wait a minute, what did you just say? What did you mean by that? What are you paying for?" "Never mind, but I can now see that you have become too fearful of me to trust me at all. You will never love as me I love you, so what is the point? I should have seen this coming when you kept running away from me…" "I told you over and over again not to fall off me, I even went so far as to leave you alone so that you could be with my brother's woman. I wanted you time and time again and now?" "And now nothing, The Second Prince can have you if he wants to, but I am tired now and I am done. Do you even know what I have that I carry I my robes with me? I have a decree from The Emperor giving his consent for us to marry, but now it looks like there is no need for it at all." "So that is it? You are giving up? You were the one to push yourself into my life when I have always taken care of myself and sought revenge on my own! Why chase me around then! And sleep with me so much! Why are you leaving me now! Why do you want me to change when everything that I do works for all of us! Nam Seon-Ho!" "Do not worry about it, you no longer have to change for anyone! I am done with this and I am going to reunite with the woman that I should have been with this entire time! Send Hwi my congratulations for the birth of his son and I will send my nephew his gifts, but I am going back to the palace where I belong, where I will never let you tear down for your own grudges! And I never wish to hear your name or see you again, Seo Yeon!"
Finally, I was truly so close to giving up that I never thought that I would ever see this day at all. Nam Seon-Ho was really done with Seo Yeon? He no longer wanted to marry her? Or have anything to do with her at all? He was now a single man? Someone who was ready for marriage with the right sort of woman to help him in his career? His future? Our future? This was y very last chance to rise up again with my sister and I wasn't going to let this opportunity pass, I couldn't…and I was going to make sure of it.
"Young Mistress Seo? Please, do not turn away from me! I only wish to convey my goodbyes to you as I am also heading back to the palace to reunite with my sister with The Young Master Master Nam…" I could see that he was trying her hardest to prevent herself from crying, but it wasn't working out very well for her. She looked how she had forced her man to made my feel since the moment that I met him and it was worth everything I had been trough to finally see this day come. "So is taking you then, personally?" "Yes, but I have just received news that his nephew has curly broken out into a cold and all of the physicians are current tending to your sister-in-law. As the toddler was in my care last, I am afraid that is will reflect badly onto myself when I return to his sister, so I urgently need to scour the forest and look for some herbs myself if I do not wish to place myself in anymore trouble…" "Do you know where to look? Do not make that baby more ill by looking in the wrong places." "You should probably come with me to ensure his safety, but I can understand why you wouldn't wish to. Very well then, and congratulations on your upcoming nuptials; i have let go of my obsessions and now I will just marry anyone that my older sister deems fit for me." "You can take your time in choosing a husband now I suppose, do not force this issue though. Marriage is a lifetime affair that not everyone gets the luxury of having…even then, who says that a woman cannot live without a husband?"