>>Corvina
I shot my eyes open, gasping and sweating like crazy. I sat up on an unfamiliar yet oddly familiar bed.
"Oh God…" I felt the sweat go down my neck and I wiped it with my hands, "I thought that truck killed me." I shook my head and let out a breath of relief, "Oh My God," My breathing was ragged.
I thought my second life was going to be short as well.
I closed my eyes and let out a deep breath.
"My Lady?" Someone seemed to be talking to me, "My Lady, are you up?" I heard someone walking towards me, but-
My Lady?
Who?
Me?
Nobody calls me that in this life though.
"My Lady, if you're up it's time you get changed and go down to fetch your manservant."
!!!
I shot my eyes open and looked at the woman standing by the large bed I was on.
"Tracy?" I recognized the maid immediately. How could I ever forget that face. She was my maid in my first life, an awfully rude one at that.
"Yes," She stared at me, "Would you hurry up, I have other things to do."
I stared at her
She was my maid in my first life… But I died. Hael killed the whole manor when I turned 18 and I reincarnated in modern times. Into a normal family and lived a pretty decent life. I just got a job too, so why the hell is Tracy standing in front of me-
I paused
Then looked around
The room was familiar. So familiar it felt nostalgic
…
I felt my skin stand up as my eyes wandered around.
I jumped out of the bed
Oh No!!
I ran towards the full length mirror that was always in the corner of the room by the big window
I stopped in front of it and stared at the light wavy jet black-haired girl with pale white skin staring right back at me with those dark, night like eyes
"Ah Shit,"
***
Tracy was setting my clothes after I took a bath and changed clothes. No matter how much I wanted this to be a dream, it wasn't. I had stared at myself in the mirror long enough to know that I was back to being 'Corvina'
A girl so desperate for love, she ended up turning into a monster who tortured the man she wanted.
I let out a sigh
I was very happy in my second life. I lived like a normal person, had a loving family and good friends. I was only twenty four years old and I died again. Am I destined to love short lives or what?
…
Funnily enough, I hit my head on the wall when I slipped on the pavement when I was going to work in the morning. That's when all my past memories, memories of this life, came back to me. I was so ashamed of how I lived my life that I ended up not going to work and went for a drink.
I drank the whole day, ignored calls from work and at night when I was about to black out from all the drinking I decided to go home.
But somehow I ended up crossing the road without looking and didn't even notice a truck coming my way. I was so drunk, I barely even heard the honks.
I let out a chuckle, making Tracy give me a weird glance but I paid her no attention. It was funny, I can't believe I died twice. The first was painful but in my second life, I was so intoxicated, I didn't even feel any pain.
And now I'm here, back in time… Back to my first life.
I clicked my tongue
Come to think of it, does it mean I'm back in my first life, or would it count as my third life?
"Done," Tracy finished my dress and stepped back. I looked at myself in the mirror
I wonder how my family is taking the news of my death… They must be devastated…
I can't believe I did something so stupid and ended up getting myself killed again.
I let out a sigh and turned towards the bedroom door.
Both of my deaths were my own fault.
"Tracy," I walked towards the door, "What did I have to do again?"
She frowned at my question, "You were going to get Hael."
I stopped,
Hael
Just hearing that name made my heart skip a beat.
"Why?" I grabbed the door handle
"Because you locked him in his room for the whole day."
Ah…
I closed my eyes and grimaced, then opened the door and stepped out.
"Wait," I looked at her again, "How old am I?"
She looked at me with a weird expression but answered anyway, "Fifteen"
"Fifteen!?" I was surprised, then I looked down in dismay.
….
Well shit
I'm back in time where I've already committed atrocities. If I remember right, by this age I had fought with every servant in the house. Not that it did me any good, but I hated how they treated me.
I shook my head.
If God was throwing me back in time, he could have chosen a time where I could at least redeem myself.
I began to walk away.
What the hell am I supposed to do here?
***
"Open the door," I stood in the corridor, far away from his room while Tracy went ahead and opened the lock on Hael's room.
She opened the door, "You can come out," She smiled at him shyly and I frowned. Why is she acting coy?
My question was answered pretty fast.
As Hael stepped out of the room and turned to walk towards me, my breath got caught in my throat.
His silver hair cascaded in silky waves, shimmering like strands of moonlight itself. His features were refined, sculpted with an almost divine precision, and he was tall but everything aside, what captivated me the most were his eyes.
An enchanting spectacle, gleaming like twin moons suspended in the night sky.
Hmm, I nodded at myself.
I remember,
It was love at first sight. He was a gift from my father. The only gift my father ever really gave me.
My heart started fluttering as he came up to me and stopped a few steps away.
I guess that would be normal. I was madly in love with him and for me, who just remembered my first life, my heart fluttering at the sight of him would make sense too.
I gulped,
For someone like me, whose eyes and hair were jet black just like her life, he was my moon, the one who was giving me light. Falling in love with him became my reason to live and was probably why I became such a deranged person.
He was staring back at me and I knew I had to say something. But what? I can't exactly remember why I locked him because I may have remembered it all yesterday. It was twenty four years ago. I lived another life between these.
"Will you do it again?" I asked as I folded my arms. That should be fine. It's a pretty general question.
"No," He answered, looking straight into my eyes, "I won't go out on errands with any other woman."
…
OH! For God's sake. I locked him up because he went out to do his errands?
It makes sense why he killed me. The kind of person I was, I would always think that he was cheating on me. We weren't even together. We couldn't be together. I'm his master and a noble. Yet in my mind he only belonged to me. I had all kinds of fantasies about him.
I got him when I was twelve and everyone in the manor bullied him like crazy till he hit adulthood and turned into a kind of ethereal handsome man. If I'm fifteen, he must be seventeen.
I glanced around, my eyes catching the maids who were swooning over him.
Hmph
I scoffed.
He must have hated that too though, considering he left no one alive in the whole mansion.
And I guess, this is when he was already sleeping around with the maids. I don't think I found that out until a year later though.
I looked down at the heart shaped pink gem necklace I was wearing.
I used this a lot.
It's a magic necklace and this heart shape indicates the heart beating inside Hael's chest.
I looked at him again.
I can pour my magic in it and plunge him into agony.
I saw him staring at the gem between my fingers. I think by this time I had already used it on him two or three times.
I let out a sarcastic snicker as I turned my head away but it caught the attention of everyone in the corridor. They all stared at me and I got conscious.
Ah Shucks! I am still a noble, so people have eyes on me all the time!
"I won't use it," I told him and his shoulders relaxed a little but my heart continued to beat fast. Not only out of my crush for him, but also because of fear.
Three more years and he kills everyone here.
What do I do then?
Is there anything I can do to change this? What should I do? I've already used the gemstone on him and people here have bullied him a lot too.
If I stop it now, will that make a difference?
I looked around and a thought crossed my mind.
Wait…
Did I even have the authority to do anything?
Wasn't I the black sheep?
…
And it dawned upon me.
I was the discarded child