When we finally arrived to school on our first day together,we were excited for the day .we headed straight to the entrance.
For the first time I was confident and stylish.nina had dressed me that day in a very demure manner. Normally I would wear a tracksuit or a pair of jeans with a hoodie.
This time around Nina dressed me in my purple dress which my grandmother had bought for me last Christmas.
It's took alot of convincing in order for me to agree to wearing that dress.i hated wearing bright colours because I was convinced that it's would give me attention from people.
I always wanted to be invisible in the crowd.
I felt safe when I was lost in the crowd.
Finally I wore the purple dress which grandma bought,and it's gave me alot of attention.more attention than I would normally get when being bullied.
Alot of people complimented me and I started to feel tall and beautiful.
As we walked on the school's runway I was astonished by the number of people who kept on greeting me.
To my knowledge I thought no one knew who I was but on that day people started calling my name .
As I was rejoicing I saw vusi and the rest of my classmates by the end of the runway.
Our class was the last one on the lane .it's stood right next to the toilet where I was also bullied sometimes by the girls who felt like I did not deserve to share a bathroom with them.
They would claim that I did not meet their standards.i spent my entire primary school life using the bathroom from home to and from school .
One time I had forgotten to urinate before heading to school .hence I suffered alot that day . anything the teacher said I did not hear it,all I wanted was the bathroom.
I could not risk my chance.i stood there waiting for the others to go .but they took longer until I peed on myself.i wet myself and it's was very embarrassing.
On that day I wore jeans with my black hoodie.the moment the urine came out I closed my eyes.i knew it's was about to go down.
My whole bottom became wet,I had hope that no one would look or notice me but I was definitely wrong .
One girl looked on my side and immediately noticed.i would say that I also gave it away as I stood there in the most awkward way possible.
She pointed at me and her friends started turning over to my direction like zombies.They burst in to laughter and the whole corridor payed attention.its was another day of feeling worthless.
I vowed to myself that I shall never take chances and not use the bath room before I go to school.oh I was to be officially given a name by the school bullies.