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Chapter 84 - Chapter 83: I am Yours

The scent of blood still clung to her gloves.

It lingered, soaked into the silk of her sleeves, the ghost of death pressing against her skin like an old lover that refused to be forgotten.

She sat in the back of the car, silent, unmoving. The driver knew better than to speak, and Maya—Maya, sharp as ever—only glanced at her through the rearview mirror once before looking away.

Chen was dead.

It should have felt like victory. It didn't.

Noor rested her chin against her knuckles, her dark eyes trained on the window. Outside, the city stretched in a blur of neon and shadow—too alive, too untouched—as As if Chen had never existed at all.

But Noor knew . The dead never left.

They settled in the spaces between heartbeats, in the silences between conversations. Chen's last words clawed at the edge of her mind—You never considered that you might be the prey.

Noor's lips curved. A small, bitter smile.

There was no hunter in this world that wasn't also hunted. No god that wasn't also condemned.

And yet—there was something about his words, something in the way he had smiled as he die.

She turned away from the window. "Maya."

Maya straightened instantly. "Yes, ma'am?"

"Where is Yilan?"

"She's still at the hospital," Maya answered carefully.

Noor hummed, tapping her fingers lightly against her knee.

So she stayed.

Interesting.

__________

The hospital smelled like antiseptic and quiet suffering.

Noor stepped inside, the weight of her presence parting the space before her. Doctors and nurses glanced up, their movements faltering before they remembered themselves and looked away.

Noor didn't stop walking.

She found Yilan easily.

The girl was standing near Sanlang's room, her arms wrapped around herself, tension radiating off her in waves. When she looked up and saw Noor, something flashed across her face.

Noor ignored the way her fingers curled slightly.

"Come with me."

Yilan flinched. "What?"

Noor's eyes flickered downward.

It was barely noticeable—a slight quiver in her hands, a shallowness in her breath. But Noor saw it.

"Now."

Yilan hesitated—just for a moment. Then, without another word, she nodded and followed.

---

The estate was silent when they arrived.

A watchful silence, the kind that settled just before the storm broke.

Yilan felt it the moment she stepped inside. The weight of the place. The weight of Noor.

She wasn't sure when she had started holding her breath.

Noor led her through the halls without a word. Every step felt heavier, the marble beneath them like ice.

Then—the doors opened.

Yilan barely had time to react before the scent of blood hit her.

She froze.

The men Noor had brought back from the hospital—the ones who had tampered with Sanlang's brakes—were inside.

Slumped. Broken. Still breathing.

Noor stepped forward, her silk dress whispering against the floor.

"Let's not waste time," she murmured. "Tell me what I want to know."

One of the men coughed, spitting red onto the pristine floor. He laughed—a sharp, humorless thing. "You think you scare me?"

Noor tilted her head.

Then—without hesitation, without pause—she reached forward, gripped his collarbone, and crushed.

The snap echoed.

Yilan sucked in a breath, her entire body locking in place as the man screamed.

Noor didn't even blink.

"You will," she said simply.

The air in the room changed.

_______

"You're lying."

The words were soft, calm—but they cut deeper than any blade.

Yilan's breath came shallowly, her heart hammering against her ribs. "I'm not."

Noor sighed. "And yet, here you are, trembling."

She took a slow step forward.

"Chen," Noor murmured. "You reacted to his name as if he were something more to you."

Yilan's lips parted—too slow, too late.

Noor's eyes flashed with something cold. Something final.

And then—Maya stepped forward, iPad in hand.

She didn't say anything. Just turned the screen so Yilan could see.

The world shattered.

Images. Videos. Proof.

Chen's hands on another woman. His lips on her skin. His arms wrapped around bodies that weren't Yilan's. Laughing. Kissing. Owning.

Yilan's knees buckled.

Noor didn't move. Didn't blink. Just watched.

Then—softly, so softly it was almost kind—she asked, "Was it worth it?"

Yilan froze.

Yilan clenched her fists. She had known.

Of course, she had known.

Yet here she was—shaking.

Noor's voice was soft. Measured. Unforgiving.

"Tell me, Yilan."

"Was it worth it?"

Yilan opened her mouth. Nothing came out.

Because what was she supposed to say?

That she had spent months—years—convincing herself she was in control?

That she had thought she was the player only to realize—too late—that she was the one who had been played?

She wanted to speak.

But the truth was staring back at her.

And the truth was—she had lost everything.

"You wanted to betray me." Noor's voice was velvet.

"You planned it. Thought about it. Convinced yourself you could."

Yilan flinched.

Noor tilted her head.

"But look at you now."

A pause.

"You never had control."

Yilan sucked in a breath.

Noor leaned back slightly, fingers tracing the silk of her sleeve.

"You thought you were weaving the web."

Her gaze flickered downward.

"But you were only getting tangled in it."

Yilan's body locked.

Because it was true.

"Did you ever really believe he loved you?" Noor murmured.

Silence.

"Or did you just need to believe it?"

Yilan's lips parted. A breath. A half-formed denial.

Nothing.

Because there was no answer Noor did not already know.

Noor sighed.

"You trapped yourself, Yilan."

She stood.

"And that's why you are no longer needed."

Yilan hadn't moved.

The iPad was still in Yilan's trembling hands. On the screen, The images—the intimate touches, the laughter, the stolen moments— But they weren't theirs. They never were.

A strange sound left Yilan's lips—a half-formed denial, a sob that had lost its way.

"You lied to yourself," Noor said finally, her voice like silk pulled too tight. "That's the worst kind of lie, don't you think?"

Yilan shook her head, as if the motion alone could erase everything. "No, he—he loved me—"

A low, almost amused chuckle.

Noor tilted her head, dark lashes lowering as she observed the girl.

"Love?" Noor murmured. She said the word like it was something foreign, something obscene. "Is that what you call this?"

She stepped forward, slow, deliberate.

"You think he loved you?" Noor's voice dipped lower, rich with something unnameable. "Did he love you when he was with them?"

Yilan flinched.

"Did he love you when he ordered Sanlang's death?"

The color drained from Yilan's face.

Noor leaned in slightly, her scent—soft silk and something sharper—flooding the space between them.

"Did he love you," Noor whispered, "when he used you as a tool? When he looked at you and saw nothing but a stepping stone to power?"

Yilan's legs buckled, and she sank to the floor.

Noor didn't stop her. She simply watched as the girl fell apart beneath the weight of truth.

Maya shifted slightly, glancing at Noor, but she didn't interfere.

"You came into my world thinking you were untouchable," Noor said softly. "Thinking your feelings made you safe."

A pause.

"You were wrong."

And then—softer, crueler, almost gentle.

"Tell me, Yilan." Noor knelt, her silk dress pooling around her like liquid night. "Now that everything is gone… what do you have left?"

Yilan broke.

__________

The hospital room was dim, the only light coming from the soft glow of the monitors.

Sanlang stirred.

Noor was still there.

She sat beside his bed, fingers absently tracing the ridges of his knuckles. Her touch was light, almost absentminded.

Sanlang turned his head slowly, his gaze catching hers. Even in the haze of medication, his eyes saw too much.

"You stayed," he murmured.

Noor didn't answer immediately.

Instead, she lifted his hand, pressing her lips against the back of it.

It was barely a kiss. Just warmth. Just presence.

Sanlang's breath hitched.

"Noor—"

"Don't speak," she whispered.

Sanlang ignored her.

"I thought I lost you," he admitted.

Noor's fingers tightened around his.

"You did," she said quietly. "Once."

Sanlang swallowed, his throat raw. "And now?"

Noor exhaled softly.

Now?

Now she was here. And she didn't know how to leave.

Sanlang watched her, his gaze tracing every inch of her face, as if afraid she'd vanish if he looked away.

His fingers twitched against hers. "Say it."

Noor's heart clenched.

She knew what he wanted.

But Noor was made of shadows and steel. And love—love was Something ruinous.

Sanlang's voice was softer now, almost pleading. Almost breaking.

"Noor."

She closed her eyes. A storm raged inside her.

Then—finally, quietly, like the first breath after drowning—

"I am yours," she whispered. "I was always yours."

Sanlang's eyes closed, a slow, peaceful smile curving his lips.

You…" her voice wavered, frustration bleeding into relief, "Someday, you'll be the death of me, Sanlang."

His lips curled, weak but knowing. "So, you admit it then?"

Noor's breath hitched.

And just like that—her mask cracked.

Still—she whispered, "I've always accepted you."

why did you keep me at a distance?"

Noor closed her eyes.

"Because I couldn't bear to lose you."

A breath. A heartbeat.

Then—Sanlang smiled, eyes heavy, voice barely above a whisper.

"You never could."

Sanlang's fingers brushed her cheek. His fingers twitched against hers. Noor didn't move.

It was dangerous how much he wanted this.

Slowly, his gaze dropped to her lips.

"Noor." His voice was hoarse, his body weak, but the weight of his desire burned through every syllable.

She inhaled, sharp and quiet.

"Sanlang—"

He reached up before she could finish. His hand trembled, but he still cupped the side of her face, his thumb grazing the curve of her cheek.

Noor let him.

That was all the invitation he needed.

Sanlang moved.

His lips met hers—tentative, aching, a quiet devastation.

Noor froze.

Then—she shattered.

Her fingers curled into the sheets. He felt the way her body tensed, as if fighting something within herself.

She tilted her head, deepening the kiss, her breath unsteady.

Sanlang groaned softly. His body was too weak to hold her, too exhausted to demand more, but Noor—Noor met him with the kind of desperation that made him forget he was broken at all.

Her lips moved against his, slow but urgent, as if trying to carve this moment into existence.

Sanlang's fingers tangled in her hair.

Noor gasped against his mouth.

He swallowed the sound.

He felt her hesitation, her fear, her reluctance—but he also felt the way she pressed closer, the way she let herself be undone.

His hand slid down, gripping her wrist, holding her there.

He wouldn't let her escape this.

Noor broke the kiss first, but she didn't move far.

Their foreheads touched. Their breaths mingled.

Sanlang swallowed hard.

"Say it," he whispered.

Noor's fingers curled against his chest.

A pause.

Then—finally, soft and wrecked and breaking:

"I need you."

Sanlang's heart stopped.

And then, without hesitation, he pulled her back in.

_________

The study was dimly lit .Noor sat in the high-backed chair, her fingers lightly resting against the armrest .

Zeyla knelt before her. Head bowed. Hands placed on her thighs. The picture of submission.

"Did you hesitate?" Noor's voice was soft.

Zeyla lifted her head slightly, her eyes dark pools of reverence.

"Never."

A pause.

"Would you?"

Zeyla exhaled.

"I am yours," she whispered. "There is nothing else."

Noor studied her.

"You came without being called." Noor's voice was quite.

Zeyla lifted her gaze. "You knew I would."

A pause.

Noor finally turned. "Why?"

Zeyla's breath was steady, but her fingers curled slightly against her thighs. "Because you were with him."

Noor studied her. "And that concerns you?"

Zeyla did not flinch. "It affects you."

"You do not question me," she murmured. "You never have."

Zeyla's voice did not waver. "You do not make mistakes."

"And if I did?"

Zeyla exhaled, slow and certain. "Then I would follow you into them."

Noor took a step closer. "If I asked you to walk into fire, would you?"

"Yes."

"If I told you to leave and never return?"

A pause.

Then, softer. "I would still wait."

Noor tilted her head. "Blind devotion is dangerous."

Zeyla met her gaze without hesitation. "Only if it is misplaced."

Noor let the words settle. "And you are sure yours is not?"

A flicker of something unreadable crossed Zeyla's face.

"You can doubt anything." A breath. "But not me."

Then, a tilt of her head. A single question.

"And if I told you to die?"

Zeyla's lips parted. No hesitation.

"Then I would ask how you wish it to be done."

A flicker of amusement ghosted across Noor's features.

"Blind devotion is dangerous."

Zeyla's gaze never wavered. "Not for those who deserve it."

Noor leaned forward slightly. The room seemed smaller.

"And if I become someone unworthy of it?"

Zeyla's voice didn't falter. "Then I will follow you into your own destruction."

Silence.

Then, a whisper of a smile.

"Stand."

Zeyla obeyed instantly.

Noor reached forward, her fingers brushing against Zeyla's wrist.

And yet, Zeyla trembled.

"You are not my servant, Zeyla."

Zeyla's breath hitched.

"I know."

Noor's fingers trailed upward, barely touching.

"You are not my shadow."

Zeyla's hands clenched at her sides.

"I know."

A pause.

"Then what are you?"

Zeyla's heart pounded.

Noor's touch lingered.

And then, finally, Zeyla spoke.

"I am yours."

A beat.

Then—quieter, something sacred breaking open:

"And I have always been."

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