Xavier's POV
All I wanted to do was rest. I have been getting horrible headaches for a while and I haven't been able to sleep properly. From the day Julian told me Amaya, she has been all that I thought about. She consumes my mind, body and soul. Without telling Julian, I decided to go and see for myself what he was talking about. When he told me about it, I was very doubtful. I didn't believe that he could have seen Amaya.
That was only until I had to see her with my own eyes. There she was sitting under the tree, alone, having lunch as her hair lightly blew in the wind. My body froze. It was Amaya. It was her. Even at a distance, I could clearly see it was her. I fought the edge to make my way to her. I couldn't. I continue to watch her discreetly from afar.
My heart and mind were conflicted. The truth right now is that she is the woman who I hate the most. I loathe her with every fiber of my being. But the unknown truth, the truth that I denied a million times, was that deep down in my heart, I loved her. Yes, that is the real truth. I love her, but she broke my heart, and she crushed it with her hands.
I don't exactly know where it all went wrong, but it all fell apart, and it was too late to do anything. I still remember it like it was yesterday. The day she rejected me as her mate. I couldn't believe it. All I felt was that searing pain, fire all over my body and the feeling like I was being torn apart from the inside. My first time transforming into my wolf form didn't even feel as painful as being rejected. I was confused. I didn't know why she did that, but looking at her face, she didn't look even the least bit regretful or sorry. There was no emotion on her stone-cold face.
She watched me scream out in pain without flinching. I was mortified. I couldn't believe the girl I loved and was ready to give the world up, broke my heart like it was nothing. It was over for us and I couldn't do anything. I was in pain and I was hurt. I didn't want to show anyone that I was vulnerable, so I hardened my heart and decided not to make anything out of it.
That was until I saw her with my younger brother, River. I never thought they could be together at the time. I wanted to tell him to stay away from her, but I figured I would have to explain to him why, and I did not want to do that, so I just let them hang out. The day came when everything came crashing down.
River took her to the house and introduced her as his girlfriend. I couldn't believe my eyes. Everyone was happy and didn't know what had transpired between us. They didn't know that she was once my mate and she had rejected me. I felt like a fool. The biggest fool and I was hurt. I had a hard time hiding my displeasure with their PDA. They held hands, smiled at each other lovingly, caressed each other's hair and looked out for each other. I felt like I was having a really horrible nightmare and those were also my punishments. At one point, I felt like they were just faking everything just to get to me. That's what I hoped for.
How I was dead wrong. After dinner, they disappeared somewhere. I was so relieved that they were out of sight. I was on my way to my room, but I heard sounds from the room across mine. It was River's room. My mind's gears started moving, and I froze at the thoughts my brain was supplying. They couldn't be.. right? They cant. I swallowed, feeling my throat dry up. The door to River's room was slightly opened. I stood in the corridor contemplating whether I should take a quick peak or not.
In the end, I just did it. I snuck up a peak and I saw them passionately make out. River was sitting on the edge of the bed and Amaya straddled him as they kissed. They were completely unaware of my presence, lost in their world of passion. Amaya gripped River's hair and his hands roamed her body as they made out intently. Amaya moaned and moved her body. Just looking at her movement like that, making those sounds because of him, crushed my heart into dust.
I moved away and ran out of the house. My heart was beating wildly, and the make-out session played in my head over and over again. I needed to escape, so I ran. I jumped and changed into my wolf form, running into the forest. I don't know how long, but I ran until I dropped. Such humiliation. From that day, I let go of all emotion and I intended to rain my wrath upon them.
I made a decision to make their lives a living hell. I thought that River was my brother. I just hated him at that point. He stole what was mine. Why should I have cared about him when he didn't care about me? Hatred took over my mind and blinded me from all reason. That is what I thought. My hatred destroyed many lives. It's too late to turn. I was far too deep.
The only one who understood my pain and grief was my Beta and best friend, Julian. He has been by my side from the beginning of it all. He supported and aided my madness and has followed my orders without fail. I feel sorry for him because he was dragged into this mess because of me. He is suffering just because he chose to stay by my side. Everything that happened was my fault and I guess it's only right that I am still paying for it. Amaya was right to curse me.
Now it stands that I don't know what to do. There is no point in feeling regretful now. Everything has been done. I've chosen this path of hatred, and I'll see it to the end. One way or another, our ill fate will have to see its end and I don't intend to lose.
From the time Julian told me about Amaya, the question remained of what we should do about her. We need her to lift our curse. The only problem about that is that she is reincarnated, and she is no longer Amaya, and she doesn't have her witch powers. That is what we think. If that is the case, then Julian and I might as well be cursed for eternity. For a long time, we have sought out witches to try and break the curse, but we failed each time. The curse was soul bound, meaning the one who cast it is the only one who can undo it.
Today we went to her school. We have been keeping an eye on her for some time. She goes by the name, Brielle. Brielle Johnson. Her appearance might be the same, but a lot is different as well. I didn't want to be close to her so Julian took it upon himself to approach her. We want to know if she remembers the past or if we were dead wrong about the whole thing. There is a possibility that she and Blake coincidentally look like River and Amaya. What are the odds?
Our fates depend on her being Amaya. We need her to get rid of the curse, but at the same time, I couldn't help wishing it wasn't her. I just don't know what I want. Everything is just too much. It drives me crazy. I don't know what to do. Only time will tell what our cruel fates have in store for us this time.