Honestly, I still didn't fully understand her, but lately the signals she was sending me started to make sense to me.
If I wasn't mistaken, she seemed to like me, but as a couple, which surprised me.
In doubt, I decided to run some tests and realized that she was indeed courting me as if I were of the opposite sex.
I couldn't understand it, since, although I didn't have someone in particular, I knew I liked men.
So for a while I tried to keep my distance from her, doubting her every action and intention.
But as time went on anyway, I inevitably grew closer to her again and couldn't do anything about it, even knowing her intentions.
I also noticed that she started giving the same signals to a lady of the marquisate, who at some point started to be close to her, not knowing how dangerous she could be.
I was not surprised, by that time I had already understood the lady's tastes and accepted them, so I did not pay much attention to her.
I just made sure to warn the lady correctly, so that she would not be fooled by her, even so, things did not change, but at least I warned her.
With her interest now in that lady, I thought that would stop her from going after me, but apparently I was wrong.
She kept courting me while doing the same with the lady.
I thought about it, it was common knowledge that the other servants told me, it is not uncommon for nobles to have several wives, in fact apart from her there was a nobleman of the same rank who had more than 30 wives.
Really nobles have a different standard. And the same applied to her.
I thought that even though she was a woman, she had that habit, which didn't surprise me so much, seeing her courting more than one person.
She was a noblewoman, I didn't see why she couldn't do it, although I wasn't very happy to be her target, I didn't see anything strange in Phina's tastes, who only spoke like a lady when it suited her.
On the other hand, I couldn't do anything about it anyway, so I just let her do what she wanted, I thought it would be useless anyway.
it's not as if she could change my tastes, and it doesn't seem that she tries to force me with her authority, so I got rid of any worries, and concentrated on keeping my attitude as her servant, which I regretted later.
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'What is going on here, who am I, what am I doing',
confusion came over me due to the different emotions I felt. I didn't know at what point, but slowly, Phina was catching up with me.
Although I knew her intentions, I slowly fell into her hands, making me doubt everything I believed about myself.
'Is this the power of the abuse of authority she always boasts about?'
I wondered as I saw her face, which at some point began to look attractive to me and triggered something in me that I couldn't explain.
'No, that can't be. I accepted it myself.'
Finally, she managed to convince me to kiss her, something I obviously agreed to, and it was too late to regret it.
Apparently, she was already taking root in my heart, even though she was a woman.
I feared what would happen next, since, reason, was not what was guiding me, reason was telling me that I should set the boundaries.
and although I tried to do so many times she was overstepping them, she seemed to become more and more beautiful as time went by, no rather, I felt I liked her the more I interacted with her, not only because of her looks, she had broken the boundary between maid and mistress and I felt good about that.
If it wasn't for her antics that she performed from time to time, I was sure we would have moved on faster and already.
'Wait, what am I thinking? This is a mistake from the beginning',
Clarity came too late, my role as a servant would be compromised and her being the way she is she would want to keep taking more and more without measuring herself, now that this happened.
I didn't know what my face should look like at this moment. Although I wanted to keep it impassive as I had practiced and maintain the papal I had been mentally preparing myself for so long.
I felt an emotion that I was experiencing more often lately, but this time on a different level.
Embarrassment pushed me over the edge and, without realizing it, I threw a punch that knocked her down.
Seeing what I had done, I panicked, but knowing what she was like, I was sure she would forgive me. Still, I felt guilty for not controlling my emotions, whether it was my role as a servant, or as a woman, everything was a mess because of her.
'I need to improve, I need to be more professional'
I didn't know how to deal with her. Fortunately, when she woke up, she didn't remember anything. I thought it was better that way, to prevent something similar from happening again.
But mysteriously, she always knew where I was most vulnerable and repeated her actions, until I realized that my resistance was futile.
Even the scale increased over time, and by the time I realized it, I was already in her bed naked, embraced by her, with a great comfort and fullness coursing through me.
I no longer felt like resisting, so I simply accepted that I had fallen in love with her, with my Lady, with Seraphina.
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Time passed and she was more sincere with me. She told me her story, which answered many of my questions, which seemed to me to be a kind of fairy tale.
Although I had heard similar stories about individuals brought from other worlds by the gods, I had never believed them.
Phina told me that she had been reincarnated by a goddess and that in her previous life she had been a man. That's when I understood the reason for her preferences.
I was a little confused, and it took me a few days to accept it, but finally things went back to normal, when I finally understood that I fell in love with her being who she is now.
Also, she told me that the object we went looking for some time ago was something that would help her become a man again.
It was an unbelievable story, but still, she explained many things that I did not understand until then.
What bothered me was that she took advantage of the confusion about her secrets to make me promise her my virginity when she was 18.
I mean, it doesn't bother me because we've already come this far, but....
I was a little hesitant about why it was necessary to completely change her appearance, since, according to Phina, she could change only a specific part of her body without doing it completely.
But she said she wanted to keep a promise to herself.
I was a little nervous and my heart was beating fast for some reason. Still, I didn't feel rejection for her proposal.
'As long as it was her'
I thought everything would be fine.
So I acted calmly to that outrageous proposal, I felt that after all, I had improved in my way of acting professionally at least I will not be dragged easily by her.
In the end I replied calmly that it would not cost me to do it and that it was nothing special, although deep down I knew that my words did not reflect what I felt, I was very nervous, but I was not being dragged, I also wanted to do it.
At that moment, I realized I could handle everything she was—everything she might throw at me
Although if she were to overdo it, I would make sure to keep her under control, after all, she is a hopeless pervert with little self control.
As her servant and lover, it's my duty to be firm with her when needed. I won't let her lose control. I'll make sure she always carries herself with at least a trace of dignity—because I'm staying by her side, for good.
'At least I'll keep her from becoming a criminal, even if it's by force'
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As it was, and before I knew it, the days passed and finally the day came when Phina turned 18.
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******
The moment had arrived. The moment I had been waiting for.
'Today is the day, it's finally today. I'm going to be a grown man...adult woman?, well whatever I'll be an adult.'
I was in a large hall surrounded by countless people: nobles, rich merchants, famous blacksmiths, alchemists and representatives of many churches.
They were all gathered here for one reason: my 18th birthday.
My father had organized a big celebration, and I had no doubt that he even invited the royal family, although they only sent an unknown prince as a representative, besides not all of them came and my father didn't invite all the nobles either.
I searched to see if I could find some familiar faces based on the fragments of memories of my alternate self, but there was no one outstanding and even all the guys my age were just people that I don't remember at all in my memories.
Well, it was pretty obvious, we are entering an era that only happens once in a while in this world and all the talents are preparing for it, including me.
I was in the center of this whole party, having to socialize and do a lot of things. It was a bummer, but with the memories of Seraphina and etiquette deeply ingrained in this body , it made it easy for me to handle myself among so many people who kept coming even when I didn't like it.
"Happy birthday, Miss Seraphina."
"Thank you very much, Marquis Robinson. I'm glad you came." 'Damn pig, stop ogling me.'
Many of the nobles, despite being older than my father, were giving me looks that made me sick. But I had to be strong and finish this party so I could see Elena who was the one I most wanted to spend the day with, unfortunately, she was unable to attend due to her status.
So, as I slowly walked away from the disgusting nobles, I approached the section of girls my age, which helped me relax and discreetly flirt with them.
The party was at its peak, requests for me to be their dance partner were coming in frequently from the young and adult nobles, but I had already refused to dance with everyone who came to perimire me, besides my father who basically forced me since I couldn't refuse due to the customs of the kingdom.
'That damn guy who makes me call him Daddy every time I ask him for something. I hope Sebastian's baldness rubs off on him,'
I cursed my current father a bit, while laughing and listening to the girls' gossip. At that moment, I could hear some different murmurs and , as I saw what it was about, I realized that some girls started to murmur as they saw someone coming from behind me.
I turned around and saw a young nobleman with such a beautiful gaze that it awakened in me the need to throw something at that beautiful face before he could steal potential members of my harem.
But I had to hide my true emotions and just smiled a practiced smile. The moment he approached with obvious intentions.
"Miss Seraphina, would you do me the honor of dancing with me?"
'This wretch, his target was me.'
I could see the desire and other emotions in his eyes and upon hearing his invitation, I turned him down on the spot.
"I'm sorry, but I don't feel like dancing."
"Don't worry, miss. With me you will discover the pleasures of dancing."
Even with my refusal, he persistently continued to talk seductively to me and indirectly charm some girls from the surrounding area until I got tired and accepted him.
'that bastard thinks he got away with it'
I looked around and, apparently, besides the girls, no one had their attention on us, as all the adults were talking to each other about politics and business.
So, when no one was looking, I moved quickly, my hands and pressed a few points on his back without his noticing.
As we were walking, suddenly there was a sound and, at that moment,
"Nooooo!!!, it can't be, why!"
The source of the piercing scream came from the young man in front of me. Apparently, he had peed his pants and there was a visible stain on them. So, without hesitation, he ran off while crying tears of humiliation.
'You've got it coming, so let's see if in the future you'll try to teach me what pleasure is. '
So, without anyone noticing that I was the culprit, I went back to the girls' corner, where I again realized how brutal noblewomen can be when it comes to starting a rumor.