'I messed up big time.
I did something unforgivable to Eric-san, and now he's mad at me and wants to put distance between us.
Since it was a punishment, I accepted it, thinking I could stay away until he was ready to reach out again—but I was wrong.'
'The last few days, I lost my appetite—but I still eat anyway. If I don't take care of my body, Eric might not want me anymore.
I've lost all motivation to do anything. Eric is on my mind every waking hour, and sometimes even in my dreams.
We're always happy together in those dreams, and I always wake up with my pillow soaked in tears.
Plus, I'm horny 24/7, so I just stay cooped up in my room with my stash of Eric's videos and photos.'
'After two days of skipping school, my parents finally urged me to go, so I did.
Honestly, I couldn't bear not seeing Eric any longer anyway.
I went at the usual time—when he typically arrives—just to watch him from afar.
