Su Xiaowan's words, full of suffering and indignant, made Han Dongchen both self-reproachful and distressed. He knew he wasn't a good husband, nor was he a good father. For the sake of national righteousness and the deeply ingrained ideology of serving the country, he had let his beloved woman, his respected wife, suffer too much.
Su Xiaowan never complained to him about anything, she was so tolerant of all that he did, tolerating his sudden disappearances and sudden appearances, tolerating that during the hardest times, he couldn't be by her side to accompany her.
Han Dongchen knew the bitterness in Su Xiaowan's heart; she couldn't complain to others, couldn't express her inner anger because she was an officer's wife, married to a soldier. They say understanding is everything, but behind understanding lies deep helplessness and bitterness.
