Husband husband I always called him that I never get the chance to Called him by his name
Even though I say that let me died before you , before that he passed away
Question what kind of man he was
She When we first me I will said that he was preety dumb , stupid but he was responsible , caring, Loving . I don't realise he was still immature but I didn't know back in those day
He give me food , shelter, take good care of me even though I was just eating away from from him ,he would not have gain anything. He teach me about love guess he was starting to become become more and more mature / realised. He said to me don't always love me please look around love other life u have love me at first I was confused but I now realised his words . I was always fixated on him that I was blind to other beauties of life ....
One day me and husband walk together on some isolated, bleak , depressing place and soon it started to have fog and it rain suddenly. And we sit at a stop for a long time . Normally it would be scary but for some reason I feel strangely feel good although the atmosphere was very dark as if I am about to meet death I feel very comfortable. The big long free look scary but with him I was okay . He said feel the same as what I feel about the surrounding. later the rain become stronger so even if we get wet let just go he said we both were soak up in the rain . On half way through the rain stop and he held my hand and we walk together while talking to each other and enjoying the nature/ surrounding/Atmosphere. Later he decided to carry with his arm on me and later piggy ride . I feel warm , comfortable and safe within his arm and his back . Soon we reach our home we both take bath together i came out first as the water was so cool and in our balcony I look outside I could see other barely other house because of the fog and it was night time already and there is no light . The only thing giving light was the moon . The room is drak but still u can see some thanks to the moon . In my mind I thought this death , everything feel so empty and meaningless, I feel down for no reason ,I feel sad , I am scared , I feel tired , I feel cold , I feel good ,I feel afraid , I feel helpless, I am empty , I am nothing, what is going on what is going on in my mind I can't no longer understand it there seem to be no answer, what should I do ,I don't know what I should do . I was staring blankly in front without blinking from the coner of both my eyes it started to become dark until I can no longer see anything but darkness cover my whole eyes .At that moment I feel true death a true nothingness my mind no longer work my body no longer move as if I was no longer existing and feel as it I never existed. I don't know how to explain that feeling of nothing as nothingness can't be explained became is nothing. There is something missing to explain nothing there must be something below nothingness to explain nothingness but what is that ?. There is nothing to explain nothing there is nothing in nothing. What is going on ? This me be it the end of knowledge Nothing is the end of knowledge and limit of knowledge. SUDDENLY
a cold feeling on my shoulder bring me out of this thought I was having for so long in my mind not it was just a few minutes. I started to see what have become dark I can see the houses in dark and fog surround the outside and it was night time. Huuuh !!!!! I make a noise and husband was looking at me with a look of concern on his eyes. It was a surreal experience I don't know how to explain. I was shocked at what I just experienced and collecting back myself and my thoughts. ....,.........,......
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I come back and husband was in front of me ARE YOU OKAY AND HE HUG ME I CAN FEEL HIS WARM I started to feel alive
And with a my head looking downward and looking forward I hug with back it make me feel alive after what I just experience I didn't feel what is life not to be alive and I fear that it will come to me one day. A strong wind blow
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WITH the thunder , heavy rain, fog and the strong wind . I feel small in comparison how weak and fragile is human
I was just standing and suddenly went up and before I knew I was in my husband arm
Heheeee hee haha hahahahaahaah did that thunder scared u my little wife he said .
Hmph!!
Are u embarassed by that ?u are still shaking
"It okay to be afraid but u must overcome that fear one day " no need to be ashamed of that u are still growing.
I just was a bit shock u know!!! That all
He pet my head and then put me down on the bed I remember that first time u didn't that to me I murmured
Did u say something ?
Yhen I feel a cold breeze on my whole body
I am putting the blanket on let go with 3 blanket for today and it just a small cold before it get all warm just bear it a bit
Then he came in the bed and I went in quickly on his top and I feel so safe there . Soon the bed began to warm up I feel cozy and comfy . I never feel such a great pleasure no I feel this once before also when we first meet.
He pet on my and thing squeash my cheeks
Were u feeling disturbed at that time . U must me scare my dear wife today u are still young but u re strong
U re making fun of me again!
Ha ha ha ha ha hahaha ! U re so funny and cute
Hey let enjoy the view
We both enjoyed the view of the night
Everything is so dark I can barely seen anything , the silence, and the cold and many other scary thing but he is holding me very close in his arm it makes me feel so happy in such scary time and cold I am with him .
Last thing I remember was I was leaning towards him and his warm body his warm hand petting my head with alway make me very happy every time he did. Then he came a bit closer to me and then pull me towards him my chest touching his chest I feel the warm and then I see him smiled and I wakes up and in the morning and everything feel so fresh and I was in his arms .