I never was the kind to want power, to the point that I would have to hurt others at least
I wasn't strong at all, you could argue that I was just a regular guy who was inspired by this adventurer epidemic, although I knew I wasn't special I wanted to be, I wanted to try my hardest to see how far I could get, how strong I can grow
I always regretted not being able to help my father back then, I came here with the guilt of not being able to do anything
So when I met someone with the same drive to get strong I was happy, everyone there looked like they only attended the test to get a license so they could make money, after all being an adventurer didn't require any education, but he and the others? They had a different aura to them, Cara I knew, but the others proved to me that they were unlike the others, I was happy I was surrounded by people like that so why did I get so angry?
Teras was an anomaly, he trained on a different level even though we did the same thing, his mana flow felt different than ours, it was way more natural, when I used mana it felt like I was summoning it but he? He just guided it like a lighthouse
Maybe that's why he was able to get so much further from us, I felt like he was cheating somehow, he was too good to be new
It angered me how I wasn't able to put out the same result he was even though I tried too, I tried outside training too but my results were nowhere close to his
Then the chance for me to cheat came too, it was a tall human-like creature, a ghost or something, he offered me power and I gladly took it
He told me he would make me stronger so why wouldn't I, right? Anyone would have, but when I did I started feeling weird
Ominous visions and strange irritations were frequent events, those visions were something along the lines of destruction and cruel wars, the sky in those visions was red and the air felt thick
My body also started moving in ways I couldn't control, I trembled and was this itch, I kept on scratching the places where it itched me but nothing was happening, in some places my skin started to fall off from all the itching, revealing a much brighter skin, almost like someone else was growing inside my body
My personality also started to change, I became more aggressive, more mad, more inhuman
But even after all that Teras was able to win me every time, nothing I did could close the gap we had, until I asked Prodo to take full control of me, I didn't care anymore, but I cared...
Why did I say that to him? Did I give my life to him? I would never... For a childish reason like that, I could never give up my life...
So what made me do that? Is it control? The visions showed me something similar
It was a circle of people, no animals, they fought for their life, they were all chained yet instead of rebelling against us they fought among themselves, "Us"? Who am I talking about...
Anyway, they fought like crazy, and one specific animal won most duels, this animal reminded me of Teras
This animal was the only one that managed to escape by killing me. I mean the "me" in the vision, I considered this a threat
Teras was coming after me, so I viewed him as an enemy, and when I finally gave my life for power he was the one that stopped me, the one that killed me, if he hadn't stepped up first the others wouldn't have either
I would have won
But at what cost? Losing my life? My body? My soul? My salvation?
No that's something attainable even after all that but it's still weird...
I'm dead, aren't I? So why am I talking from this rocky place, watching the stars as if it were night even though the sun is up?
Where am I?
It looks like the moon, kind of, but there is no other moon...